Happy Anniversary 4 Years by @Umeko (Umeko Yamitaro)

It has been four years since I confessed about my feelings for Shodarkhorn I still remember it today how it happened. It was the night from Christmas Day to Boxing Day At least at home in Sweden About 1 am my time. He came on to wish me a happy christmas, I didn't realise what have happened until the day before. Every time he'd sign on my heart'd skip a beat and my face felt warm.

in the picture its Umeko and Kaize kissing under the mistletoe infront of their christmas tree. Umeko waves her hand quickly and all the candles lights up with a blue flame.

And WOW I drew a background

Happy Anniversary dear Tiger! I hope you like this one ^^ this is the reason why I could not show you it when it was finished as the writing was a secret ^^

Kaize Dienstien © Shodarkhorn Umeko and Art © Me

Well here is the whole thing what happened that day ^^ I just want to share it with you ^^ this is a chat log from msn

smiles the moment blush I will never ever forget this, it was here where Shodarkhorn and I got engaged.

He called me up on Skype, and we had the webcameras on. I saw him going down on his knees my expression was a mix of: O.O o.o O.o :'D | |.o>* My heart felt like it stopped beating for a few seconds until he said the words "will you marry me?" I cried, oh I cried, I have never ever thought that anyone would want to have me as his wife, so happy soooo happy. Tiger is mine and I am forever his.

.--------------------------------------------------------------------. | Session Start: den 26 december 2004 | | Participants: | | ...Queen as returned from the death (umeko_kitsune@hotmail.com) | | ...g to kill that which is dead... (kristoff_saint@hotmail.com) | .--------------------------------------------------------------------. [22:48:08] (f)Umi-Chan:: glomps [22:49:07] Ghostly Sho-: Merry X mas sis [22:49:15] Ghostly Sho-: a day late but all the same [22:49:24] (f)Umi-Chan:: wags tail [22:51:02] Ghostly Sho-: Have a good Christmas??? [22:51:18] (f)Umi-Chan:: yeah Xmas Eve was good anyway [22:51:36] (f)Umi-Chan:: yesterday I cried most of the day [22:51:43] Ghostly Sho-: why?? [22:51:47] Ghostly Sho-: Why so sad??? [22:52:09] (f)Umi-Chan:: because I realised yesterday that where I am now... I am totally alone [22:52:13] (f)Umi-Chan:: no friends [22:52:21] (f)Umi-Chan:: 1 I don't trust anymore [22:52:25] (f)Umi-Chan:: 1 moved to germany [22:53:28] Ghostly Sho-: you moved to Germany??? [22:53:32] (f)Umi-Chan:: not me [22:53:37] Ghostly Sho-: who?? [22:53:42] (f)Umi-Chan:: my friend Linda [22:53:48] Ghostly Sho-: awwww [22:54:00] (f)Umi-Chan:: so I'm very much alone [22:54:08] Ghostly Sho-: I tell you truthfully Becca if i was there I would have spent my chrsitmas with you gladly [22:54:34] (f)Umi-Chan:: b..bro [22:54:53] Ghostly Sho-: now now now [22:54:58] Ghostly Sho-: holds her tight* [22:55:07] (f)Umi-Chan:: bro, I need to say something [22:55:16] Ghostly Sho-: then go ahead [22:55:23] (f)Umi-Chan:: don't hate me [22:55:28] (f)Umi-Chan:: but, this fox [22:55:35] (f)Umi-Chan:: has fallen [22:55:54] (f)Umi-Chan:: in love with big bro Sho............... [22:56:35] Ghostly Sho-: .....wha...... [22:56:55] Ghostly Sho-: I am not mad [22:56:58] Ghostly Sho-: far from it [22:57:08] Ghostly Sho-: just really really surprised [22:57:28] (f)Umi-Chan:: looks at bro [22:57:34] Ghostly Sho-: but how??? [22:57:40] Ghostly Sho-: what about kenji [22:57:41] Ghostly Sho-: ??? [22:57:53] (f)Umi-Chan:: I donno what to do [22:58:01] Ghostly Sho-: ...I am so sorry [22:58:10] Ghostly Sho-: To tell you the truth [22:58:13] Ghostly Sho-: I feel the same way [22:58:20] Ghostly Sho-: But... [22:58:31] Ghostly Sho-: Rimfire is my friend and loyal brother [22:59:00] Ghostly Sho-: I know all the time we spent together I should have known as this seems to happen to me a lot with people who get so close [22:59:59] Ghostly Sho-: But for the first time [23:00:13] Ghostly Sho-: Even through all the stuff I went through [23:00:20] Ghostly Sho-: you were always there [23:01:28] Ghostly Sho-: through my trying time and my pain you stood by me when no one else was around...you stood up for me against thoes who hurt me...I...I can never thank you enough for what you have done. You have been a REAL sister to me in everyway. [23:01:52] (f)Umi-Chan:: tears running down [23:02:55] (f)Umi-Chan:: big bro is kinda what I've always wanted... [23:03:15] Ghostly Sho-: ...don't cry [23:03:19] Ghostly Sho-: smiles* [23:03:29] Ghostly Sho-: for once someone actully loves me [23:03:39] Ghostly Sho-: beyond what I could ever hope for [23:03:55] Ghostly Sho-: That is flattering and very heart touching [23:04:47] (f)Umi-Chan:: I donno when it happen, but I realised it just a few days ago [23:05:09] Ghostly Sho-: I see [23:05:15] Ghostly Sho-: I already knew [23:05:29] Ghostly Sho-: There is not much you can hide [23:05:44] (f)Umi-Chan:: seem like I can't [23:05:49] Ghostly Sho-: I saw it everytime we chatted and I saw your eyes on the webcam [23:06:59] (f)Umi-Chan:: dries away her tears [23:07:16] Ghostly Sho-: I... [23:07:25] Ghostly Sho-: sigh* [23:07:31] Ghostly Sho-: I love you to Rebecca [23:07:38] Ghostly Sho-: I never knew either [23:07:42] Ghostly Sho-: it just happened [23:08:12] Ghostly Sho-: I guess all the things you did for me opened up a door that was kept locked since I locked it when Thresea left [23:08:25] Ghostly Sho-: I never thought I would ever say those words again to another and mean it [23:08:29] Ghostly Sho-: But now [23:08:33] Ghostly Sho-: I am trapped [23:08:35] Ghostly Sho-: as you are [23:08:57] (f)Umi-Chan:: I wanna cry fights the urge [23:09:17] Ghostly Sho-: Then cry Becca [23:09:26] Ghostly Sho-: It is alright to cry at least once in a while [23:09:53] Ghostly Sho-: you know I will not shun you because you will cry [23:09:59] Ghostly Sho-: holds her* [23:10:16] (f)Umi-Chan:: burries her face in bro's shoulder [23:10:27] Ghostly Sho-: you are so sweet [23:10:38] Ghostly Sho-: how could I resist my feelings for you as well?? [23:11:34] (f)Umi-Chan:: looks up at brotears running nonstoptries to smile [23:12:10] Ghostly Sho-: It is up to you [23:12:15] Ghostly Sho-: Kenji likes you [23:12:20] Ghostly Sho-: but he has never shown you love [23:12:33] Ghostly Sho-: you have tried [23:12:36] Ghostly Sho-: I tried [23:12:39] (f)Umi-Chan:: alot [23:12:44] (f)Umi-Chan:: I try so hard [23:12:47] Ghostly Sho-: I am so sorry....... [23:12:54] Ghostly Sho-: ...I came between you and him [23:13:05] Ghostly Sho-: ...I should have....never met either of you [23:13:11] (f)Umi-Chan:: but bro [23:13:15] Ghostly Sho-: I am causing pain without being there [23:13:27] (f)Umi-Chan:: if you never came by... I wouldn't have got the best brother ever [23:13:43] Ghostly Sho-: heh [23:13:51] Ghostly Sho-: I will leave it up to you Umi [23:13:59] Ghostly Sho-: I am not the perfect wolf [23:14:01] Ghostly Sho-: I anger [23:14:03] Ghostly Sho-: I hurt [23:14:10] Ghostly Sho-: I have not loved much [23:14:23] Ghostly Sho-: I don't really know how to treat a girl [23:14:23] Ghostly Sho-: heh [23:14:38] Ghostly Sho-: I never even been with a girl close before [23:14:45] Ghostly Sho-: As much as I would love that [23:15:00] Ghostly Sho-: I am scared of women [23:15:04] Ghostly Sho-: sits* [23:15:08] Ghostly Sho-: and now.... [23:15:13] Ghostly Sho-: You come into my life [23:15:23] Ghostly Sho-: I thought it was just mere friendship [23:15:41] Ghostly Sho-: Even with all my wisdom I could not stop what woud happen [23:16:00] (f)Umi-Chan:: sits down in the front of bro [23:16:37] Ghostly Sho-: I am sorry [23:16:43] (f)Umi-Chan:: me too [23:16:45] Ghostly Sho-: I will not say no to you [23:16:55] Ghostly Sho-: But you must make that choice [23:17:06] Ghostly Sho-: Only you can do what must be done [23:17:12] (f)Umi-Chan:: I know [23:17:24] Ghostly Sho-: Cause you met Kenji face to face [23:17:32] Ghostly Sho-: you fell for him the first time [23:17:43] Ghostly Sho-: not some 28 year old furry artist from Canada [23:18:08] (f)Umi-Chan:: you're not just a furry artist from canada... you're a very special borther to me [23:18:45] (f)Umi-Chan:: everytime you signs on I almost squeals [23:18:49] Ghostly Sho-: heh [23:18:58] Ghostly Sho-: Then I have become more then a brother [23:19:09] Ghostly Sho-: I should be looked on as family [23:19:22] Ghostly Sho-: But I seem to be the perfect mate now according to your words