Stargazer Anonnias Avion by @barbhero (Barbara Herodes)

There was once a time when I was innocent. There was once a time when I still beleived in hope, in god, in truth above all else... A spark. The child that so many ignored. The child that was forgotten. I gave birth to a being that was half of who I am. Half of my heart and half of my soul. Seven years she lived and walked this Earth, half in me and half within my dreams. Along her path followed many hardships. Love, hate, pain... She grew as I grew. More a mother to me than any who might have bore me into this world. She taught me what life was, what death was, what love was... A skatter-shot image of my own soul. The girl who was lost, teaching herself to find a way to live.

But like all things, all joys... she died. And with her, died part of me. In her, lived part of me. Returned to me, this tattered broken peice of who I was. This mother, this sister, this one thing that I held most dear. Her scar, became my scar. Her heart became my heart. But like any child, those seven years were time that was lost to me. I traded my life for hers. I was, I am, the shy girl at the back of the class. I never learned to speak for myself, in my own voice. And now I have. But that voice is that of a being who tries so hard to be strong, but ends up being so very weak. A being who, although she can talk, doesn't know how to speak. I wish I had your gift for words. I wish I had your strength.

You were my soul, my confidant, and my friend, when the rest of the world did not exist. When no one in the world would touch me, you brought me into your embrace. I cried for you. You cried for me. I died for you, and you died in return to give me back the part of me that made you live. What have I done? These years... This gift we gave each other. I remember you.

I don't expect anyone to understand what the paragraphs above really mean. But they are as close an explination of who Stargazer was as any I can give. Although she never lived to walk on this earth, she lived, and died within me. I will remember you, always. You showed me the power of my own will.

A'luve

Image Notes:

Stargazer is not human, nor gargoyle, nor anything inbetween. Her race has no name but were created by god to watch over his other creations and protect them from darkness. The scar through her eye, that has become characteristic of my characters, was the result of a battle with a dark lord of her race. He used a sword on her that had the special power to cause permanent scars. Her race normally will heal far quicker than a human, and has no scars whatsoever. The shoulder/arm armor that she is wearing on her shield-arm has a few unknown magical properties. The scale shirt she wears was cut from a dragon of the dark that she killed. The sword that hangs at her waist is a katana blade, named Kaeylon. The blade has a magical ability to channel energy through it. It is a weapon of focusing as well as one of the anchient artifacts of her race. Artwork © Copyright 2002 Barbara Herodes